Sunday, May 23, 2010

Today's teaching

Student's Pastor, Jason Curry, talked to me today. Well, he talked to hundreds today as he led the services at Church at Rock Creek, but he really talked to me. The title of his two part series is "Storms". I thought "oh, this will be good; sitting here with my daughter; oh, she needs to hear this". ROFL at myself!!! Turns out, I needed to hear it as much or more than she did.

Boiling it down to a few sentences (go to the church website for a fantastic audio of the lesson), it was based on Proverbs 3:5-6. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight". Whew!!! I'm guilty of leaning on what I think is fair and right and what I understand regarding the path of this adoption....mainly the timeline. What seems reasonable to me is not always right. I need to remember to trust in HIM and HIS TIMELINE. He knows exactly where Ira is and the timing; please pray for me to help turn this over to HIM and not try to micromanage this.....this is one time my Excel spreadsheet is NOT needed.....God's spreadsheet is WAY more awesome!!!

I need to come up with some template answer for when people ask me "have you heard anything?" Something to the effect of "God's got it all under control..."If you think of something cute to respond with, please let me know :)

God is preparing OUR son for us; some beautiful girl who has been struggling with a situation is going to find an answer that meets her needs and God will connect us; it will happen. I've been spending too much time schmoozing with the Adoption Agency and attorney; need to spend a little more time palling around with my FATHER :)

Great teaching, Jason Curry - even to a 40 year old!!! :)

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Mother's Day Weekend

To be honest, I thought Ira would be here by now. I know, I know....these things are not in my control, but in God's hands. I should not doubt HIS timing. I don't doubt it, I just don't like it. I know - shame on me. I just thought this Mother's Day would be different than how it will be. I thought my whole family would go to church together - including Ira. I thought this weekend we would have him dedicated and then have a family lunch - all cooing and awwing over him. I thought "this weekend" will be the time that an amazing attachment between Haley and her new brother occurs and that will be the greatest gift of all. I had all this played out in my head. Again, shame on me.

Instead, I spent last evening waiting her Haley to come home by going through my two virtual Wish Lists (Amazon and Babies R Us taking off some items I've already bought. I cut Jeremy's hair, sent him to work for a while and then off to a funeral and am about to leave to take Haley to the hair salon and lunch. Thank God for Phyllis who is always happy to listen and encouraging beyond belief.

I'm so glad his nursery is complete. I can now go in there, sit and think about Ira, pray for his arrival and not get hounded by anyone for having a 1 track mind.

Ira, you may not be here this weekend for Mother's Day. You may not be in your home, with your parents or at your church being dedicated. But never think you are not here with me. You are in my heart - beating so loud I can hear you. You are in my every thought. I love you and will keep praying.


Friday, May 7, 2010

Diapers 28, 29 and 30!! Plus first "Charlie's Soap"

Mother's Day Weekend and the arrival of diapers 28, 29 and 30!
I'm within 6 of my goal - WOW!
Also got in our first of the Charlie's Soap which is declared to be the best to launder cloth diapers :)
If only a baby boy were here to try these diapers on ........:)

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Ira's Nursery

With the leadership of Phyllis and entertainment by Claire, the nursery is in good shape! We still need to buy a glider/rocker for the corner and maybe hang one more thing on the wall, but it is shaping up. I am so glad we decided on the Dr. Seuss theme. I haven't seen this done so it is pretty unique. I love the colors and I am cheered up by just going in the room.
Okay, Ira, NOW we are can come now. :)
Love, Mom